Thirty Flirty & Thriving?
MORE LIKE THIRTY, FRANTIC & KIND OF SORTA THRIVING IN A WAY THAT GOD PLANNED
I'm super proud of that title, and I think we should take a moment to appreciate it.
Okay so, I turn 30 this month and as we all know that's when us ladies BLOSSOM! One morning we wake up and boom;
SUP YOU SEXY BEAST WHO IS THIRTY FLIRTY AND THRIVING.
I am still deep down hoping this happens and I'll let you know when it does
Anyhow, the truth is I feel like I was meant for my thirties. My soul sings for silky pj's, beautiful luxuries sheets, and early bedtimes to early mornings with the birds! I seriously feel like I am kicking a door down walking into my thirties... but only in that department. Oh my gosh let's call this the Flirty department!!!
ALL THE OTHER DEPARTMENTS OF MY LIFE ARE UNDER CONSTRUCTION.
The truth is I am not thriving like I thought I would. I finally understand what days to wash my hair and what days recycling goes out, but I'm not on Oprah's book club reading list. I started a business and literally cried from fear of letting everyone and myself down. Probably not the best way to celebrate a big day but hey Hakuna Matata, my friend. I use Google for everything and seriously don't understand how older generations survived life without the internet.
SO YEAH STILL UNDER CONSTRUCTION. I AM THE I-4 EYESORE.
Okay, that may be a little dramatic but still where’s my big fancy work party that breaks out into Thriller? Where's my huge glass office overlooking wildflowers and a body of water?!
My version of a Thriller dance party is watching my friend AJ KILL IT on the dance floor. This sexy beast does THE BEST THRILLER! And do you know what?
I love my version of Thriller way better.
It's a great thing that I'm not on Oprah's book club yet!! My story is still being written, and a book based off a foster child's journey will be ten times better when it can inspire other foster kids to follow their dreams no matter their background.
I'm thriving with where I am at this moment even if that means crying over failure and fear. I am still working toward that glass office and garden view, and I know I will appreciate it a little more this way. Looking at my life so far, I have learned so many beautiful lessons and met crazy cool people. I learned to roll a cigar with a group of older men in Ashville, NC ! I swam topless in the ocean at a nude beach! On top of all that, I have overcome everything the world has thrown at me. Which let's be real... was a lot. So suck it 13 going on 30.
The Lord isn't interested in my achievements when it comes to goals. Just the purpose to share my heart when I choose to act out of kindness, compassion, and love. I may be under construction, but I am where I was meant to be. I'm learning to have the serenity to accept the things I can't change, and the courage to change the things I can. I'll have a company one day that brings joy to the world just by existing, but that company will be built on what's in my heart, and holy crap will it be badass.
For now, I will continue to rock my knowledge of the flirty department and Google everything. My book will come one day when the time is right, and my business will go where the Lord leads me.